09-16-2017, 06:37 PM
Distance and his actions were not the only thing separating Ventus from Nathan anymore, for they appeared to have fallen into the void of apathy once again. This time, judging by Kirlia's non-chalance about his master cold and numb, is was purposeful decision of their this time, and it seemed to be used to cope with the emotional distress he was experiencing earlier. Even a non-empath could like Shiva could see the cold deadness of heart that the boy instilled in himself, and it seemed that that chilliness was leaking from him and spreading into the surroundings, making a once cathartic battle seem quite the opposite.
Arms tucked and crossed behind his back, Ven head now titled upwards as he stared into the cool evening sky, a serene smile gracing his face on this occasion as he contemplated his friends words, silent for a moment, before he spoke. "Perhaps. I believe, though, that either of us can really be a fair judged when it come to feeling currently. I get too caught up in my own self and beliefs at times to pay too much attention to the general mood, while you....well, you can't feel much of anything at all, correct? Self induced apathy tends to do that, in my experience" the researcher said, his head declining as he finally meet the boy's eyes.
"The fact that you can so readily seal off your own emotions, to be able to fully function without being informed by them....it frightens me Nathan. Its unhealthy for both you and Kirlia mental well-being to be like this for any length of time, as lacking the capacity to feel for others and yourself is typically a horrendous quality to have in all areas of life. Hmm...reminds me of myself, when I truly let go of all my kindness, my compassion, my empathy , and turn myself a utterly remorseless, unspeakably ruthless being, intent on only accomplishing his given task. I believe you and Shiva have seen me like that a couple of times, haven't you? I believe the both of you found it distinctly unpleasant each time, and had to struggle to convince me to return to who I am." A tilt of his head, a small frown on his face, and a slight pause in his dialoge to punctuate his remark, before he continued.
"You are acting like me when I'm at my worse, Nate. Please, lighten up, and open you heart once more to us. I want us all to enjoy this battle together, and we can't do that with you like this. Please."
Arms tucked and crossed behind his back, Ven head now titled upwards as he stared into the cool evening sky, a serene smile gracing his face on this occasion as he contemplated his friends words, silent for a moment, before he spoke. "Perhaps. I believe, though, that either of us can really be a fair judged when it come to feeling currently. I get too caught up in my own self and beliefs at times to pay too much attention to the general mood, while you....well, you can't feel much of anything at all, correct? Self induced apathy tends to do that, in my experience" the researcher said, his head declining as he finally meet the boy's eyes.
"The fact that you can so readily seal off your own emotions, to be able to fully function without being informed by them....it frightens me Nathan. Its unhealthy for both you and Kirlia mental well-being to be like this for any length of time, as lacking the capacity to feel for others and yourself is typically a horrendous quality to have in all areas of life. Hmm...reminds me of myself, when I truly let go of all my kindness, my compassion, my empathy , and turn myself a utterly remorseless, unspeakably ruthless being, intent on only accomplishing his given task. I believe you and Shiva have seen me like that a couple of times, haven't you? I believe the both of you found it distinctly unpleasant each time, and had to struggle to convince me to return to who I am." A tilt of his head, a small frown on his face, and a slight pause in his dialoge to punctuate his remark, before he continued.
"You are acting like me when I'm at my worse, Nate. Please, lighten up, and open you heart once more to us. I want us all to enjoy this battle together, and we can't do that with you like this. Please."
Like the wind, I come and go as I please... but I am always there to provide a comforting breeze.
Member of Team PUNishment. Pun-pare for Struggle, make it Double Team!
Phantom is my OTP~
Online ID: 000650
Member of Team PUNishment. Pun-pare for Struggle, make it Double Team!
Phantom is my OTP~
Online ID: 000650


