09-18-2017, 07:11 PM
Haha, you guys are a riot! I already have cookies of my own, though - and for real. I'm munching on these right now; anyone want one?
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I just got back from some outdoor meandering. Lovely day here, great for stress relief and more pondering~
Actually, I think most if not all of my openness comes from facing my past and all the details on my own. When one can look upon one's one truths and face them head-on instead of denying, ignoring, or trying to run, it makes it a lot easier to be open to others about them. Nobody can be blamed for not being open about themselves; I've seen the rampant ignorance of people and have experienced it myself first-hand (and my circumstances gave way to a pretty glaring disparity between myself and most everyone else, which makes it even harder). The Uranuim community here seems like a place where nobody really minds difference - all the matters is mutual, all-around respect.
That said...
Yeah, I get you on Discord - it can be a real hassle sometimes.
As for the mind-link, it's a more..active form of empathic perception (which I also have). Whereas an empath is simply receptive of - and sensitive to - the psychological states of others, and a more passive kind of perception (at last for me, though it may just be due to how sensitive I am to pretty much everything), mind-linking goes beyond just a "perception." What ends up happening is that my psyche is "linked" to another individual's, and their emotions, both positive and negative, become my own. This requires a great deal of mental (and by extent, psychological) stamina, because it means I'm simultaneously dealing with my own psyche and someone's else's. Most of the time I utilize it when I reach out to people who are in emotional distress, and it even works online via text only. I've actually caught a lot of people off-guard by pinpointing their current emotional states, when their emotions change, and in some cases what caused that change in the first place. It's something a lot of people like to say is "ridiculous" or impossible because "you can't discern emotion or sarcasm through text. However, whenever I do this, I willingly leave myself vulnerable to extreme stress. My limit is actually very high - much higher than most people can handle, but the limit exists nonetheless. I've learned the hard way to not only keep a tight vigil on my stress level when I link with others like this, but also to make sure I'm in sound condition to even do it in the first place. More than once, I've had my emotions go into a wild tailspin because of my carelessness, and in many cases the repercussions are so profound that I experience a number of adverse physical symptoms as well. It's an ability most people don't have and don't understand, but the extreme double-edge involved is part of the reason I think that's for the best.
The concept was touched on after the second CURIE battle, where it was revealed that Lucille had used the CURIE interface to establish the same kind of mind link with Urayne before the game's events. Initially, this was only for communication purposes, but Lucille had grown emotionally attached to Urayne during the experiments. This is something I've had to be careful of as well, and I've had a lot of problems arise simply from growing too attached to others and not breaking or at least lessening this attachment before it became problematic and stressful for me (and many good friendships were ruined as a result). However, because Lucille could only perform this mind link while wearing the Curie interface, and because she wore it for the entire ten-year period she and Urayne were in stasis together, this meant that their mind link was drastically prolonged for far longer than I would ever consider maintaining of my own volition or ability. What ended up happening is that the two separate psyches of Lucille and Urayne eventually grew into one; this process, as described in the game, "frayed" Lucille's mental state, but as this mind link was mutual, Urayne's mind was also frayed. This grotesque, involuntary process resulted in their minds, formerly stable, becoming a single, unstable psyche. Their unified condition was compounded by the fact that both Lucille and Urayne were both overtaken by despair just before they went into the stasis tank. Whenever you encounter them in the game, they're always together, but although Urayne never actually communicates during the story and CURIE does the talking, the truth is that they're both speaking from the same mind, driven by the same despair, and exhibiting the same mental instability.
Even before I played Uranium and came across this in the story, I'd realized the consequences of irresponsibility of my own mind-link ability. What would happen if I linked with someone and this person lost their mind, and what would happened to my mind as a result? What would happen to the other individual if I went insane or something of the like? Also, what more would I feel if I keep training this ability? Would I eventually be able to feel the physical pain of the other individual? If so, what would happened if they sustained an injury that left them close to death? What if they died while the mind link was still active, and what would happen to me as a result? Though more training, would I eventually gain the ability to outright control the mental processes of the other individual and other "forbidden" actions? Would I be able to peer into their mind at will and see everything they'd rather keep to themselves? How would I handle this kind of power, and what would I do to ensure that I never lose control over it and risk grievous harm to others?
Even before playing Uranium, I was asking myself these questions, but seeing the effects of the prolonged mind-link between Lucille and Urayne through the Curie interface brought me back to all the questions I was asking myself before. I think the only real difference is that I can perform this mind link at will without any kind of interface, through my own ability alone. This means I bear even more responsibility for it than someone who requires any external device.
Hopefully this answers your question, Phantom - and maybe some of the other members were wondering about it, too. Hopefully this answers a lot of questions many people might have, hahah. I'd love to talk about this more, but I think that's best saved for a new post in a different section of the forum.
Actually, I'm glad my life has been the way it has. One of the most important things I learned was to turn adversity and extreme hardship into something positive and productive - like a martial artist or warrior, you could say (and I do have an interst in martial arts and the like, but would prefer to develop my own style). Overcoming all these things helps to put everything into perspective; I've already suffered and overcome things that would honestly kill most people or at least scar them permanently. As annoying as my troubles in American society are now, they pale utterly in comparison to what I've already experienced. This kind of strength is best shown by lending it to others, so I like reach out and showing unconditional kindness to everyone, be they human or not. It's just what I do, you know?
So, honestly? After plenty of thinking and introspection, I can't really say my life has been a "disaster" to any extent - if anything, I'm probably stronger than most people alive because of it. Now I want to put this strength to good use for everyone's sake. That's how power is meant to be used, after all.
Thanks for your concern, though - honestly, I'm not used to it. There's more to my story, but I think I've said enough here, yeah?
Oh, you have nothing to apologize for - besides, I know how it feels to bear the burden of life...boy, do I ever, ahaha. If anything, I have several gorillas standing on my shoulder pretty much all the time, just to play into the context of "proverbial monkeys." Funny thing is, I tried college and university for seven years, over seven different majors. Chemistry, computer science, graphic design, forestry, international relations, environmental science, and sustainability. All of these endeavors failed, but at least I now know why - and that's why autodidacticism is my thing. Plus, I hate being stuck in lecture classes and labs; it actually gets stressful for me, being shoved in boxes like that. One thing I plan to do in Canada is tons of different kinds of volunteer work, and for me, this is a far better way of learning than institutionalized education. As for working in a STEM field, I think assisting a renowned scientist, researcher, or academic would be a viable substitute for a degree; having someone like that would can personally vouch for me and my ability, in addition to me showing my own effort, would say a lot, yeah? In the end, a degree says very little about an individual - I mean, how many Master's degree holders are in positions they as individuals obviously aren't fit for? I've seen quite a lot, myself.
Anyway, thanks for the warm welcome, everyone! While I'm here, I'd like to see what I can contribute...starting with my cookies, haha. Grab one before I eat 'em all!
After previewing my post...I dunno. Maybe I should just start a blog thread somewhere, or something. Talk about a deluge of text! xD
I just got back from some outdoor meandering. Lovely day here, great for stress relief and more pondering~
PhantomUnderYourDesk Wrote:*doesn't run, but stays and reads* I like your story and especially that methaphor near the end. You'd deserve praise for openly sharing part of yourself here. Welcome in this comunity!~ People that are truely different fascinate me, though I'm more of a listener than a talker or someone who is proactive.
Actually, I think most if not all of my openness comes from facing my past and all the details on my own. When one can look upon one's one truths and face them head-on instead of denying, ignoring, or trying to run, it makes it a lot easier to be open to others about them. Nobody can be blamed for not being open about themselves; I've seen the rampant ignorance of people and have experienced it myself first-hand (and my circumstances gave way to a pretty glaring disparity between myself and most everyone else, which makes it even harder). The Uranuim community here seems like a place where nobody really minds difference - all the matters is mutual, all-around respect.
That said...
PhantomUnderYourDesk Wrote:Though, what do you mean by 'you can do the second (mind-link) on will'? So far, I only heard of this as something used for psycho-emotional diagnosis and analysis, and not only because Lucille is my favorite character of the game (a slight pity we barely hear anything about her background, but that's where fanfiction can come into play) I'd enjoy to hear more about it. (Send a PM if you don't wish to speak about that openly in the thread, since I've turned away from Discord quite a while ago)
Yeah, I get you on Discord - it can be a real hassle sometimes.
As for the mind-link, it's a more..active form of empathic perception (which I also have). Whereas an empath is simply receptive of - and sensitive to - the psychological states of others, and a more passive kind of perception (at last for me, though it may just be due to how sensitive I am to pretty much everything), mind-linking goes beyond just a "perception." What ends up happening is that my psyche is "linked" to another individual's, and their emotions, both positive and negative, become my own. This requires a great deal of mental (and by extent, psychological) stamina, because it means I'm simultaneously dealing with my own psyche and someone's else's. Most of the time I utilize it when I reach out to people who are in emotional distress, and it even works online via text only. I've actually caught a lot of people off-guard by pinpointing their current emotional states, when their emotions change, and in some cases what caused that change in the first place. It's something a lot of people like to say is "ridiculous" or impossible because "you can't discern emotion or sarcasm through text. However, whenever I do this, I willingly leave myself vulnerable to extreme stress. My limit is actually very high - much higher than most people can handle, but the limit exists nonetheless. I've learned the hard way to not only keep a tight vigil on my stress level when I link with others like this, but also to make sure I'm in sound condition to even do it in the first place. More than once, I've had my emotions go into a wild tailspin because of my carelessness, and in many cases the repercussions are so profound that I experience a number of adverse physical symptoms as well. It's an ability most people don't have and don't understand, but the extreme double-edge involved is part of the reason I think that's for the best.
The concept was touched on after the second CURIE battle, where it was revealed that Lucille had used the CURIE interface to establish the same kind of mind link with Urayne before the game's events. Initially, this was only for communication purposes, but Lucille had grown emotionally attached to Urayne during the experiments. This is something I've had to be careful of as well, and I've had a lot of problems arise simply from growing too attached to others and not breaking or at least lessening this attachment before it became problematic and stressful for me (and many good friendships were ruined as a result). However, because Lucille could only perform this mind link while wearing the Curie interface, and because she wore it for the entire ten-year period she and Urayne were in stasis together, this meant that their mind link was drastically prolonged for far longer than I would ever consider maintaining of my own volition or ability. What ended up happening is that the two separate psyches of Lucille and Urayne eventually grew into one; this process, as described in the game, "frayed" Lucille's mental state, but as this mind link was mutual, Urayne's mind was also frayed. This grotesque, involuntary process resulted in their minds, formerly stable, becoming a single, unstable psyche. Their unified condition was compounded by the fact that both Lucille and Urayne were both overtaken by despair just before they went into the stasis tank. Whenever you encounter them in the game, they're always together, but although Urayne never actually communicates during the story and CURIE does the talking, the truth is that they're both speaking from the same mind, driven by the same despair, and exhibiting the same mental instability.
Even before I played Uranium and came across this in the story, I'd realized the consequences of irresponsibility of my own mind-link ability. What would happen if I linked with someone and this person lost their mind, and what would happened to my mind as a result? What would happen to the other individual if I went insane or something of the like? Also, what more would I feel if I keep training this ability? Would I eventually be able to feel the physical pain of the other individual? If so, what would happened if they sustained an injury that left them close to death? What if they died while the mind link was still active, and what would happen to me as a result? Though more training, would I eventually gain the ability to outright control the mental processes of the other individual and other "forbidden" actions? Would I be able to peer into their mind at will and see everything they'd rather keep to themselves? How would I handle this kind of power, and what would I do to ensure that I never lose control over it and risk grievous harm to others?
Even before playing Uranium, I was asking myself these questions, but seeing the effects of the prolonged mind-link between Lucille and Urayne through the Curie interface brought me back to all the questions I was asking myself before. I think the only real difference is that I can perform this mind link at will without any kind of interface, through my own ability alone. This means I bear even more responsibility for it than someone who requires any external device.
Hopefully this answers your question, Phantom - and maybe some of the other members were wondering about it, too. Hopefully this answers a lot of questions many people might have, hahah. I'd love to talk about this more, but I think that's best saved for a new post in a different section of the forum.
Dragonstrike Wrote:Welcome to the forums! Sorry to hear about the rough start, but glad to hear it's not a complete disaster. Hope you enjoy your stay here!
Actually, I'm glad my life has been the way it has. One of the most important things I learned was to turn adversity and extreme hardship into something positive and productive - like a martial artist or warrior, you could say (and I do have an interst in martial arts and the like, but would prefer to develop my own style). Overcoming all these things helps to put everything into perspective; I've already suffered and overcome things that would honestly kill most people or at least scar them permanently. As annoying as my troubles in American society are now, they pale utterly in comparison to what I've already experienced. This kind of strength is best shown by lending it to others, so I like reach out and showing unconditional kindness to everyone, be they human or not. It's just what I do, you know?
So, honestly? After plenty of thinking and introspection, I can't really say my life has been a "disaster" to any extent - if anything, I'm probably stronger than most people alive because of it. Now I want to put this strength to good use for everyone's sake. That's how power is meant to be used, after all.
Thanks for your concern, though - honestly, I'm not used to it. There's more to my story, but I think I've said enough here, yeah?
Lord Windos Wrote:Welcome welcome, mate! Sorry about not replying earlier, but work and classes really has been the proverbial monkey hanging on my shoulders recently, so the others got to you first before I could offer my kudos and cookies! Still, an interesting (In a good way!) character like you is what the forums need, so I am estatic to see you make your way to Pokémon Uranium! May your stay here be magnificent!
Oh, you have nothing to apologize for - besides, I know how it feels to bear the burden of life...boy, do I ever, ahaha. If anything, I have several gorillas standing on my shoulder pretty much all the time, just to play into the context of "proverbial monkeys." Funny thing is, I tried college and university for seven years, over seven different majors. Chemistry, computer science, graphic design, forestry, international relations, environmental science, and sustainability. All of these endeavors failed, but at least I now know why - and that's why autodidacticism is my thing. Plus, I hate being stuck in lecture classes and labs; it actually gets stressful for me, being shoved in boxes like that. One thing I plan to do in Canada is tons of different kinds of volunteer work, and for me, this is a far better way of learning than institutionalized education. As for working in a STEM field, I think assisting a renowned scientist, researcher, or academic would be a viable substitute for a degree; having someone like that would can personally vouch for me and my ability, in addition to me showing my own effort, would say a lot, yeah? In the end, a degree says very little about an individual - I mean, how many Master's degree holders are in positions they as individuals obviously aren't fit for? I've seen quite a lot, myself.
Anyway, thanks for the warm welcome, everyone! While I'm here, I'd like to see what I can contribute...starting with my cookies, haha. Grab one before I eat 'em all!
After previewing my post...I dunno. Maybe I should just start a blog thread somewhere, or something. Talk about a deluge of text! xD
It is by descending into the pits of one's personal hells to face them, conquer them, and make them part of one's strength that one realizes what's called "true power."
