11-09-2017, 11:03 AM
(This post was last modified: 11-09-2017, 11:09 AM by PhantomUnderYourDesk.)
...Raphael has been kept in the background, contained in his Pokeball the whole time?Why? What was he doing here? And more important, there must be a good reason for 1. Ventus excluded here and 2. he leaving his sweet Togekiss here, so much Shiva understood. For now, though, she welcomed the familiar archangel with a coy happy smile and a half hug. "Raphael! How sweet to see you, even if I didn't expected that... Now, your owner is conspicuous by his absence though." Carefully, she moves her gaze a away and back to Nathan after she distangled herself from the archangel. To her suprise (or not), Raphael gently and lightly floated over and places herself directly beside Shiva, giving a confident coo and meaningful look to her. Which in return, earned him a few strokes over his chest as she returned the gaze for a few moments. It took a few moments until she got the message he was trying to give her. "...I see... You're here, probably to Ven's desire or his orders, to soothe things between me and Nathan and improve my wellbeing? It's as Nathan says..."
Next, her expression got deadly serious, and her voice got that lower tone as she packed away the Pokeball with one hand. "Qualms, you say,,,No, I won't ask what might have caused Ven to leave Raphael here, but I understand that there must be reasons and you spoke with Ven before speaking with me. Please go on, I'm all ears." She keeps her gaze fixated on him while he avoided it thanks to fedora, and did not say a word or gave any reactions during his speech. She was, in fact, simply listening.
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It took long after Shiva even said a single word after Nathan finished. Silence filled the room again - uncomfortable silence. There was so much to say, and yet the words hesitated to even come...
"Fine... I thank you for your honestly." were the first words that broke these silence and probably the ice as well. Though, there was barely any emotion in these words - almost painful neutrality painted them. For those that know of her vivd pool of emotions this felt very wrong. "I've been already wondering why these sleep issues almost suddenly disappeared... Now I know."
She closed her eyes again and fell into this silence again, prefering to concentrate on her breath. All to somewhat try to calm herself to a degree, process what Nathan revealed here in her mind, consider what to respond at all and prevent herself from throwing up due to some of the 'delicate' information here. In front of her inner eye, that heavy door appeared again - that one that formerly has been unlocked due to the key having his the semi-honest 'I'm sorry' engraved from back at the camp on Route 4. All this time, Shiva has been gathering the strength to walk the path she saw behind this door, the path of regaining trust - now, as she has just went a few carefuly steps, the path became much more darker and sinister as it looked like before, and she almost collapsed on the spot at the sight.
That was also the point where she rather quickly openend eyes again only to meet that pleading, hopeful look in Nathan's eyes, and picked up her breathing got a shallow pattern. The memories came back. - The city's just not pretty as it used to be. Lucky that both Raphael and Kyuu were with her here. "Nightmare Escape, as you call it? I remember nausea and uncomfortableness during sleep, especially during that night... I don't think it has been caused ONLY by Ven raging at this place. It may add to it, but maybe it was more because of the Houndour's worries and the battle you people held there... The Houndour's killer... Ventus killed them... He did... He stained his hands in blood... For me?" Thankfully, a worried glance at her clothese revealed no filthy stains of blood on hre clothes. Neither does she remember any of these on her clothes as she woke up that particluar morning.
In the end, it seems like Shiva's mind as well as herself silently agreed to find it incredible noble what Ven did for her, yet it incredibly spooked her to imagine how he did that. Next issue.
Nathan kept one of these abominations. Those dream demons... Those Delta Houndour. "Nathan... It's sounds very kind and chivalrous what you did. How you felt sorry for that pack... How you wanted to bring justice to this 'Killer' of their pack mates... How you caught that one exemplar that defied its very nature as a pack animal of its own will... Yet, it'd be lying if I'd say this thought creeps. Me. Out. You own one of these... Despite knowing that they where causing terror to not only me and Ventus especially, but to the whole city... You force it to us... How...Why... I don't get it... Doesn't matter to me whether it's a new species... I better NOT give me further thoughts."
Yes, Shiva was actually close to shed bitter sad tears here, and probably continue doing so for the rest of the night once started. She saw Nathan's points, absolutely, but she failed to understand how they justify the keeping of such a Pokemon. Proving a point he says... Different than the rest he says... And now he's subliminally asking her to be fine with that, maybe she can be a 'friend' to that creature? Haha... Nope.
"... ... ...Nathan...", she threw into the room in a low yet settled tone after a period of more thick silence. "Before I'd give you an answer, let me give you an advice: Don't try to proove Ventus wrong. Don't try to change his mind about your Delta Dog. If he killed those and feels like they harmed those he hold dear, there is barely a chance to get him to change his mind, whatever you may do or try I feel like I know him well enough to be somewhat sure about that. Just leave it be... Go on and proove your point about your dog - how did you name him, Orthros? - is no monster. Feel all free to so so... HOWEVER, please don't expect me to change my mind that fast either. Or even, at all. These Pokemon harmed me, harmed a lots of people - you expect me to forefeit all these experiences because this one exemplar is loyal to you? Want me to be friends with him? I'm sorry, you're sadly asking a bit too much from me here. I cannot do this... You have to understand that I AM SCARED OF THESE DREAM DEMONS. Maybe terrorized. I cannot just approach your dog and stroke it, see it as that...'sweet' thing you see him as... If I'm honest, I'd rather not have a single of these creature near me... Still, YOU DRAGGED IT HERE. I seriously don't understand why, as you could have KNOWN I might have a bad feeling of these creatures when they kept me in their nightmare... Still, you own one of these and even keep him... Ugh..." ... "Go on though, keep him. I remember Heart has shown interest in these Delta Species. Ask him, as from my side you cannot expect more than 'he is there, and he belongs to you' from my side... Don't force me, and don't force your dog to interact with me when there are clear signs that I'd rather be left alone..." All these words were sad with a mixture of feelings... At some points, sadness was audible, at others shame, at others even a trace of rage... This all was depowering her quickly.
"It... It is nice though that you say he won't cause any harm... I can only pray to Reshiram that these are no hollow words. I like to believe you, and therefore... ... ... go on, call that Delta Houndour out of his Pokeball. Just that he sees me and I see him... Then let me leave for bed unless you have more to say. Please keep him by your side though, for now. I want to see whether he's indeed that good dog you claim him to be... If it proves true, I have no right to ask you to get rid of him. But I do have the right to better keep my distance anyway and be scared, can I? If the sleep issues start again, you know who I'll blame."
"Besides... I already caught a glimpse on these creatures. Just once, and for short though - they were chasing my Espurr in a lucid dream I had just before I woke up. It seems that was right after you people defeated the pack. There you have another reason I'd better keep my distance - I don't want to distress my psychic kitten. Kyuu... You listened to all this, did you? This dog won't chase you... If it tries, however... Please stay close to me. If you feel uneasy, we'll leave afterwards to head to bed. Now that you're with me, I won't allow anyone to even harm one hair of your grey fur."
Next, her expression got deadly serious, and her voice got that lower tone as she packed away the Pokeball with one hand. "Qualms, you say,,,No, I won't ask what might have caused Ven to leave Raphael here, but I understand that there must be reasons and you spoke with Ven before speaking with me. Please go on, I'm all ears." She keeps her gaze fixated on him while he avoided it thanks to fedora, and did not say a word or gave any reactions during his speech. She was, in fact, simply listening.
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It took long after Shiva even said a single word after Nathan finished. Silence filled the room again - uncomfortable silence. There was so much to say, and yet the words hesitated to even come...
"Fine... I thank you for your honestly." were the first words that broke these silence and probably the ice as well. Though, there was barely any emotion in these words - almost painful neutrality painted them. For those that know of her vivd pool of emotions this felt very wrong. "I've been already wondering why these sleep issues almost suddenly disappeared... Now I know."
She closed her eyes again and fell into this silence again, prefering to concentrate on her breath. All to somewhat try to calm herself to a degree, process what Nathan revealed here in her mind, consider what to respond at all and prevent herself from throwing up due to some of the 'delicate' information here. In front of her inner eye, that heavy door appeared again - that one that formerly has been unlocked due to the key having his the semi-honest 'I'm sorry' engraved from back at the camp on Route 4. All this time, Shiva has been gathering the strength to walk the path she saw behind this door, the path of regaining trust - now, as she has just went a few carefuly steps, the path became much more darker and sinister as it looked like before, and she almost collapsed on the spot at the sight.
That was also the point where she rather quickly openend eyes again only to meet that pleading, hopeful look in Nathan's eyes, and picked up her breathing got a shallow pattern. The memories came back. - The city's just not pretty as it used to be. Lucky that both Raphael and Kyuu were with her here. "Nightmare Escape, as you call it? I remember nausea and uncomfortableness during sleep, especially during that night... I don't think it has been caused ONLY by Ven raging at this place. It may add to it, but maybe it was more because of the Houndour's worries and the battle you people held there... The Houndour's killer... Ventus killed them... He did... He stained his hands in blood... For me?" Thankfully, a worried glance at her clothese revealed no filthy stains of blood on hre clothes. Neither does she remember any of these on her clothes as she woke up that particluar morning.
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Still, hearing this caused an unheared yet massive conflict in her mind.In the end, it seems like Shiva's mind as well as herself silently agreed to find it incredible noble what Ven did for her, yet it incredibly spooked her to imagine how he did that. Next issue.
Nathan kept one of these abominations. Those dream demons... Those Delta Houndour. "Nathan... It's sounds very kind and chivalrous what you did. How you felt sorry for that pack... How you wanted to bring justice to this 'Killer' of their pack mates... How you caught that one exemplar that defied its very nature as a pack animal of its own will... Yet, it'd be lying if I'd say this thought creeps. Me. Out. You own one of these... Despite knowing that they where causing terror to not only me and Ventus especially, but to the whole city... You force it to us... How...Why... I don't get it... Doesn't matter to me whether it's a new species... I better NOT give me further thoughts."
Yes, Shiva was actually close to shed bitter sad tears here, and probably continue doing so for the rest of the night once started. She saw Nathan's points, absolutely, but she failed to understand how they justify the keeping of such a Pokemon. Proving a point he says... Different than the rest he says... And now he's subliminally asking her to be fine with that, maybe she can be a 'friend' to that creature? Haha... Nope.
"... ... ...Nathan...", she threw into the room in a low yet settled tone after a period of more thick silence. "Before I'd give you an answer, let me give you an advice: Don't try to proove Ventus wrong. Don't try to change his mind about your Delta Dog. If he killed those and feels like they harmed those he hold dear, there is barely a chance to get him to change his mind, whatever you may do or try I feel like I know him well enough to be somewhat sure about that. Just leave it be... Go on and proove your point about your dog - how did you name him, Orthros? - is no monster. Feel all free to so so... HOWEVER, please don't expect me to change my mind that fast either. Or even, at all. These Pokemon harmed me, harmed a lots of people - you expect me to forefeit all these experiences because this one exemplar is loyal to you? Want me to be friends with him? I'm sorry, you're sadly asking a bit too much from me here. I cannot do this... You have to understand that I AM SCARED OF THESE DREAM DEMONS. Maybe terrorized. I cannot just approach your dog and stroke it, see it as that...'sweet' thing you see him as... If I'm honest, I'd rather not have a single of these creature near me... Still, YOU DRAGGED IT HERE. I seriously don't understand why, as you could have KNOWN I might have a bad feeling of these creatures when they kept me in their nightmare... Still, you own one of these and even keep him... Ugh..." ... "Go on though, keep him. I remember Heart has shown interest in these Delta Species. Ask him, as from my side you cannot expect more than 'he is there, and he belongs to you' from my side... Don't force me, and don't force your dog to interact with me when there are clear signs that I'd rather be left alone..." All these words were sad with a mixture of feelings... At some points, sadness was audible, at others shame, at others even a trace of rage... This all was depowering her quickly.
"It... It is nice though that you say he won't cause any harm... I can only pray to Reshiram that these are no hollow words. I like to believe you, and therefore... ... ... go on, call that Delta Houndour out of his Pokeball. Just that he sees me and I see him... Then let me leave for bed unless you have more to say. Please keep him by your side though, for now. I want to see whether he's indeed that good dog you claim him to be... If it proves true, I have no right to ask you to get rid of him. But I do have the right to better keep my distance anyway and be scared, can I? If the sleep issues start again, you know who I'll blame."
"Besides... I already caught a glimpse on these creatures. Just once, and for short though - they were chasing my Espurr in a lucid dream I had just before I woke up. It seems that was right after you people defeated the pack. There you have another reason I'd better keep my distance - I don't want to distress my psychic kitten. Kyuu... You listened to all this, did you? This dog won't chase you... If it tries, however... Please stay close to me. If you feel uneasy, we'll leave afterwards to head to bed. Now that you're with me, I won't allow anyone to even harm one hair of your grey fur."
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