Oz get silence for a while, listening to every word from the dandy man, kinda of surprised to his route of rational. He truly looks like a good person.
After he finishes his words and makes his question, Oz for a second, and then look again at the horizon.
"...I will answer both of your questions since you have been honest."
"Why I think I less deserving: Well...this is kinda related to my area of work, healing. I a medic, and I make a oath to do my best to help people with my healing knowledge. But...*Sigh* Let's just say some years ago my best was not enough. And then when people try to help me..."
Oz remember the memory trigger with her last interaction with Seddi, corpses around her, and the shadow above her, ready to kill her.
"They paid a terrible price because I was not good enough...Because I failed to them..." She once again put her head between her legs. "...I think I less deserving because I not good enough. And everyone who try to help, either get hurt or worse. A person offer himself a helping hand, and I genuine thinks he wants to help." She grab her own arms and cried a bit. "...I truly wanted to accept his hand...But...I just...can't. I scared to just think of the slight possibility to him, or anyone else who get closer to me. My mind just...can't deal with the possibility of something horrible to happen."
She looks at her hands. "These hands I wanted to be ones capable of save life's, to heal." She clangs her hands. "But all they do is hurt."
She then looks at him and tell him. "My very existence...is a curse...And I think I better in be alone." She put her face again in her legs.
After he finishes his words and makes his question, Oz for a second, and then look again at the horizon.
"...I will answer both of your questions since you have been honest."
"Why I think I less deserving: Well...this is kinda related to my area of work, healing. I a medic, and I make a oath to do my best to help people with my healing knowledge. But...*Sigh* Let's just say some years ago my best was not enough. And then when people try to help me..."
Oz remember the memory trigger with her last interaction with Seddi, corpses around her, and the shadow above her, ready to kill her.
"They paid a terrible price because I was not good enough...Because I failed to them..." She once again put her head between her legs. "...I think I less deserving because I not good enough. And everyone who try to help, either get hurt or worse. A person offer himself a helping hand, and I genuine thinks he wants to help." She grab her own arms and cried a bit. "...I truly wanted to accept his hand...But...I just...can't. I scared to just think of the slight possibility to him, or anyone else who get closer to me. My mind just...can't deal with the possibility of something horrible to happen."
She looks at her hands. "These hands I wanted to be ones capable of save life's, to heal." She clangs her hands. "But all they do is hurt."
She then looks at him and tell him. "My very existence...is a curse...And I think I better in be alone." She put her face again in her legs.
Kogeki currently ability to active in battles: Anticipation.
