...You know. It was not only the size of the post that make it difficult to put in the thread: I was actually crying while writting Oz answer post. Try to do that while listening to that music in your head, and you problably going to stop 5 to 5 minutes just to control the sobs.
...I know its problably stupid. For me to be over emotional while doing that. But...In a way, Oz is problably the character where I put more my own soul than any other character in these forums. More than Arial, Heart and Kogeki. I think...in a way...I wanted to...honor all the years we play together in this place. So I wanted to do my best to make the most emotional character I have ever created in my short existence as a fellow player and proud member of this forums. Pokerole was the first ever system I played with rules, and where I first get into trully grasp how deep and meaning is the world of Roleplay. Where I started as a friend, a player, and now as a full fledged GM.
...I must admit I know lots of times in the past, I was selfish, made lots of mistakes, and let anger control my very core. And I make many of you upset and made mistakes. And I know even now, I will have to live the rest of my days knowing what I did...But I feel trully blessed and grateful that despite my own shortcomings and my own failures. None of you ever give up on me. Despite my temper, you still consider me...a friend. Even after ALL these years, even after everything that happened, you grab my hand. You accept me as your companion, and friend. And for that, you ALL, and I mean, ALL of you, have my eternal gratitude. Words can't express how grateful I am to have meet so many incredible people. Both old and new.
...Thats why I wanted to make my best character I could ever make. I take a long while to joined in the journey because I wanted to craft the best character possible. A character who even if it would die in the campaigh, or if by chance anything happen to me IRL, or even if life for one reason or another drive us appart, to all of you carry a part of me in your memories, your hearts, and enjoy a good time together.
In a way, Oz is my magnus opus. My pride and joy. My hope and melancholy. She is the amalgamation of all the crystallize experiences I had and will have in this place: The sadness but also joys. The tragedies...but also hope.
The combination of all that I lived, ALL that I experience in these last years. The sadness and tragedies we endured in these last years...And still suffer in a way.
Oz is the character I feel more proud to ever make. But even after she depart from this campaigh, be by circumstances of death by the dice gods (and I will accept that fate, if that ever happens, because there are things who are beyond a DM control and even more for a player) or be by the end of the campaigh, I will be happy and even satisfied that I could craft something who means a lot to me, and I was able to finally share with you all this wonderfull experience.
Oz is more than just a PC and a character. More than just combination of words, rules and background...She is my love letter. She is a love letter I wanted to give you all, for all the amazing things and wonderfull memories you gave me.
To all my fellow players, friends, companions, and members of the Pokemon Uranium Forums who might just watch and read the campaigh from time to time:
Thank you, for everything. And to allow me, a stranger be allowed to part of this little existence of ours called LIFE. For this, thank you...Forever.
...I know its problably stupid. For me to be over emotional while doing that. But...In a way, Oz is problably the character where I put more my own soul than any other character in these forums. More than Arial, Heart and Kogeki. I think...in a way...I wanted to...honor all the years we play together in this place. So I wanted to do my best to make the most emotional character I have ever created in my short existence as a fellow player and proud member of this forums. Pokerole was the first ever system I played with rules, and where I first get into trully grasp how deep and meaning is the world of Roleplay. Where I started as a friend, a player, and now as a full fledged GM.
...I must admit I know lots of times in the past, I was selfish, made lots of mistakes, and let anger control my very core. And I make many of you upset and made mistakes. And I know even now, I will have to live the rest of my days knowing what I did...But I feel trully blessed and grateful that despite my own shortcomings and my own failures. None of you ever give up on me. Despite my temper, you still consider me...a friend. Even after ALL these years, even after everything that happened, you grab my hand. You accept me as your companion, and friend. And for that, you ALL, and I mean, ALL of you, have my eternal gratitude. Words can't express how grateful I am to have meet so many incredible people. Both old and new.
...Thats why I wanted to make my best character I could ever make. I take a long while to joined in the journey because I wanted to craft the best character possible. A character who even if it would die in the campaigh, or if by chance anything happen to me IRL, or even if life for one reason or another drive us appart, to all of you carry a part of me in your memories, your hearts, and enjoy a good time together.
In a way, Oz is my magnus opus. My pride and joy. My hope and melancholy. She is the amalgamation of all the crystallize experiences I had and will have in this place: The sadness but also joys. The tragedies...but also hope.
The combination of all that I lived, ALL that I experience in these last years. The sadness and tragedies we endured in these last years...And still suffer in a way.
Oz is the character I feel more proud to ever make. But even after she depart from this campaigh, be by circumstances of death by the dice gods (and I will accept that fate, if that ever happens, because there are things who are beyond a DM control and even more for a player) or be by the end of the campaigh, I will be happy and even satisfied that I could craft something who means a lot to me, and I was able to finally share with you all this wonderfull experience.
Oz is more than just a PC and a character. More than just combination of words, rules and background...She is my love letter. She is a love letter I wanted to give you all, for all the amazing things and wonderfull memories you gave me.
To all my fellow players, friends, companions, and members of the Pokemon Uranium Forums who might just watch and read the campaigh from time to time:
Thank you, for everything. And to allow me, a stranger be allowed to part of this little existence of ours called LIFE. For this, thank you...Forever.
Kogeki currently ability to active in battles: Anticipation.
