(05-22-2017, 09:15 AM)Super_trainer_Larry Wrote:(05-21-2017, 06:29 PM)Dies Irae Wrote:(05-21-2017, 06:08 PM)Super_trainer_Larry Wrote: after poisoning something Japanese with my American pride, I feel a little bad and good at the same time (darn you Ronald Reagan!) but yeah American pride has been making problems and I don't want to have that so I choose a new nationality..... PINK! no wait that's not a country.... AUSSIE WORLD! wait that's not what its called Austria? sure im Austrian now so im evil? no they aren't evil any more uh im just gonna be Canadian their I make your syrup and have great hockey teams.
Larry, would you like to talk about what's bothering you?
Trawling an internet forum trying to kick something off for attention isn't a particularly healthy solution.
You've sort of been out of sorts since your prom incident.
yeah I figured I might as well tell you guys why im so "patriotic" latey (at least 2X more than usually) it all started in 2015 on Dec the 2nd on that day I met.... how do I put it ah the "girl" at a dress rehearsal for "the Singing Christmas Tree 2015" (google it if you want but the play is long and filled with Christian people playing Christian characters so being offended might happen) at the rehearsal I was right beside her so I introduced my self and that's where things went down hill. First I learnt how not to introduce your self to ANYONE IN THE WORLD and second it made me look like I want a girl friend (which I didn't want at the time) so she really tried to dodge me for the next 2 weeks after the first week I fell head over heels for her as I ended up doing these things wrong: asking if anyone was sitting by her when her father was, sitting at a table that she was uninvited, telling WAY to many jokes to her and making some about her, and getting angry at her friends trying to protect her from my reckless loving ideas that sound like bullying or something now I think about it
so by 2016 she doesn't want to talk to me or go to events for most of the year because of me so I think does she hate me? Does she even want me to exist? and other stuff like that, so I thought her friends just thought I would steal her from them and they would be nothing without her (im angry at the time so im really stupid) and I plotted to make sure that they weren't friends anymore so I can be her friend (at this time its like North Korea's latest test, they know how to build medium range missiles but still lack nuclear weapons and long range missiles) so I was angry up until July. In July we had 2 events at the church an VBS and a mission project in our town by VBS I thought hey maybe I should make a new with her and hope she would forget (she didn't and we where still at the same way we where for 6 months) so I tried talking to her and it fail. By the project though she was in it but must have not known I was or something like that? Soon I saw her as we where eating dinner (I was with a friend of mine and his sister and a kid who has been using my crush on the "girl" as a weapon against me(smart dude I wish I could do that)) so I try to talk to her the first time and same as usual it fails, so the next time I prayed that God would make her forgive me and I would have the strength to talk to her without chickening out and it works she said it a weird of how I was acting and I explained why I was like that (minus the part that I have a crush on her) and said sorry for it and we where 50/50(at least that's what I though!
chapter 3 the awkward part:
now its singing Christmas tree 2016 (its Larry's Christmas play in entertainment) and things start to go quite, as everyone enjoyed being with friends for everyday for 2 weeks and then hated it I was quite having flash backs and thought on an alternate timeline in which she hated me (that plus im not a very social person) but the good news is I only saw her 3 times at that play that year. The worst one was in a tight narrow stair way I was right in front of her and we where moving so slow, my heart was beating in my chest it was like a drum, my palms where sweating, my neck got that weird feeling it gets when I think im being watched but on steroids, and my legs where shaking, by the time we reached the top of the stairs the guy that was walking up the stairs right beside her said "this outfit is killing me (there where nice suits though, I was jealous of the high schoolers) so I desided "now I can make her think I forgot and moved on" so I said "but you look nice in those suits if you walked around I Texas and west Arkansas people would think you are a actor of some sorts" (didn't say anything to the "girl", but she laughed at what I said) so then I turn around and keep my mouth shut until I reach the dressing room and said "yes I did it!" as soon as someone else walked in he ask what so I lied and said I beat the last level in Batman arkham (had it on my phone and finished it long ago) and that's really all. I oddly stalk her social media (same as for everyone else I know to but I don't got social media) for some reason though but other than that I tried out for a role that would get me a chance to talk to her but I failed. Now I got a chance to talk to her at the project thing and the next singing Christmas tree (and other high school events in late summer, fall and winter(and 3 years)) but yeah I have been the same way in this crush for 2 years (on the bright side I think God has told me shes the one!)
Won't press the issue if you don't feel up to it, but just taking this at face value, it really does sound like you need to think this through again, Larry.
Not to say I'm the best counselor to talk to at the moment, but you want to take this to private messenger?



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