06-18-2018, 09:03 AM
(This post was last modified: 06-18-2018, 03:15 PM by PhantomUnderYourDesk.)
For the most part, Shiva simply remained calm, careful and compassionate towards this struggling mass that the oddball of sociologist currently was, once or twice an impercible sigh escaped her or at appropriate times a weak smile was gifted to him. She didn't touch him again and slowly withdrew her hand from his shoulder the moment it became obvious to her what this soft stroke (that he welcomed and returned so easily formerly when things between them were fine...) caused within Ventus: The collision of two desires that were opposite to each other, the clashing of an urge to flee in fear and the determination to stay and rework things with the one he loved so much.
Oh how poor Shiva wishes that she could simply roll over, slump down on top of him, gift him a a sugarysweet and coy smile and ease his pain and worries by cuddling him like there's no tomorrow or until either of them are out of breath, but she was aware that even the simple act of wrapping arm around him now will serve to startle him to the very core and at worst make him fall from the hammock in an urge to get free. She had to set her desire for his affection aside for now - for his sake. For their both's sake, if she wants to get back to the secret and dear state of young love they've shared. Looking at him for a moment with the gleam in her eyes seemingly saying something like 'Seek comfort in my closure', she eventually averted her gaze and let him speak his mind further.
Her expression was neutral when she shook her head at one point, telling him that "....I'm sticking with my believe that you should be proud of yourself. Not for the way you've acted towards me or all, but for opening up to me DESPITE you were so...fearful. The courage within you... There's something within you that doesn't want to let go of me as it seems, something so strong that it doesn't wish for us to end like this. It's not worth it, we don't deserve it... YOU don't deserve it. I won't drop you because of....such a thing.... You can be as sure as a Swift after Lock-On has been used not missing it's target on that, dear. I'll mark today as the day you've said that you...love me. That alone makes me not loosing hope in you."
"...Fear is a nasty and pestering thing, is it.... Sometimes your ally, somethings your enemy. But... Maybe you hadn't a chance to prevent things with your mother, but nothing says that you haven't now with me... I'll BE patient with you. I'll give you all the alone time you need. I won't allow myself to be hurted if you avoid my company while we travel back to the surface.... But please don't outright reject me should I come to you and ask how you're doing when we're back in Cress City again.... The mending of things between us takes us both, Ven. You aren't on your own anymore since we've met - remember that. Please TRY to keep that in mind..."
Silence followed where she only repeated a few phrases from the song he once sang to her. ".......................Ven... I'm so sorry for what has happened. For what...all of this is doing to you.... I should have known better, haven't I?"
A little after that Shiva sat upright in the hammock and began to search for something in her stuff. "I'm also sticking with my viewpoint that you HAVE done the right thing, though. If you haven't...noble and fluffy Reshiram knows how things will go for and between us.... *silent hint to the Reshi-Plush she has made and given to him, maybe it helps him remembering it* "If you....allow, I wanted to give you something before I'll leave you alone now..... give me your hand, please." If he does and she withdraws her own hand again, Ventus finds the Dragon Scale laying in his cupped hand. The throws a soft smile over her shoulder to him. "....I got it as a reward for a job once, it's been a charm of mine ever since. I-I....I've intended to gift it to you for Ao Guang to enjoy shortly after you adopted him, but I must have...missed the right opportunity....... And lately, I got my own small dragon. I can introduce you to her once.... But for now, I'd like for you to keep a hold on this scale. Once you are ready to embrace me again, give it back to me.... Until then, take good care of it."
A 'last' glance for Ventus and Shiva made her way off his presence and hammock, Cottonee and Nightshade (especially Cottonee) giving Ventus a wondering and - if it's possible for the fluffball - compassionate look before she made haste to follow her beloved Master back to the table she formerly occupied. Chi was probably still there, napping as a statue. Shiva herself smiled lightly after this time with Ventus - but her eyes are wet.
Oh how poor Shiva wishes that she could simply roll over, slump down on top of him, gift him a a sugarysweet and coy smile and ease his pain and worries by cuddling him like there's no tomorrow or until either of them are out of breath, but she was aware that even the simple act of wrapping arm around him now will serve to startle him to the very core and at worst make him fall from the hammock in an urge to get free. She had to set her desire for his affection aside for now - for his sake. For their both's sake, if she wants to get back to the secret and dear state of young love they've shared. Looking at him for a moment with the gleam in her eyes seemingly saying something like 'Seek comfort in my closure', she eventually averted her gaze and let him speak his mind further.
Her expression was neutral when she shook her head at one point, telling him that "....I'm sticking with my believe that you should be proud of yourself. Not for the way you've acted towards me or all, but for opening up to me DESPITE you were so...fearful. The courage within you... There's something within you that doesn't want to let go of me as it seems, something so strong that it doesn't wish for us to end like this. It's not worth it, we don't deserve it... YOU don't deserve it. I won't drop you because of....such a thing.... You can be as sure as a Swift after Lock-On has been used not missing it's target on that, dear. I'll mark today as the day you've said that you...love me. That alone makes me not loosing hope in you."
"...Fear is a nasty and pestering thing, is it.... Sometimes your ally, somethings your enemy. But... Maybe you hadn't a chance to prevent things with your mother, but nothing says that you haven't now with me... I'll BE patient with you. I'll give you all the alone time you need. I won't allow myself to be hurted if you avoid my company while we travel back to the surface.... But please don't outright reject me should I come to you and ask how you're doing when we're back in Cress City again.... The mending of things between us takes us both, Ven. You aren't on your own anymore since we've met - remember that. Please TRY to keep that in mind..."
Silence followed where she only repeated a few phrases from the song he once sang to her. ".......................Ven... I'm so sorry for what has happened. For what...all of this is doing to you.... I should have known better, haven't I?"
A little after that Shiva sat upright in the hammock and began to search for something in her stuff. "I'm also sticking with my viewpoint that you HAVE done the right thing, though. If you haven't...noble and fluffy Reshiram knows how things will go for and between us.... *silent hint to the Reshi-Plush she has made and given to him, maybe it helps him remembering it* "If you....allow, I wanted to give you something before I'll leave you alone now..... give me your hand, please." If he does and she withdraws her own hand again, Ventus finds the Dragon Scale laying in his cupped hand. The throws a soft smile over her shoulder to him. "....I got it as a reward for a job once, it's been a charm of mine ever since. I-I....I've intended to gift it to you for Ao Guang to enjoy shortly after you adopted him, but I must have...missed the right opportunity....... And lately, I got my own small dragon. I can introduce you to her once.... But for now, I'd like for you to keep a hold on this scale. Once you are ready to embrace me again, give it back to me.... Until then, take good care of it."
A 'last' glance for Ventus and Shiva made her way off his presence and hammock, Cottonee and Nightshade (especially Cottonee) giving Ventus a wondering and - if it's possible for the fluffball - compassionate look before she made haste to follow her beloved Master back to the table she formerly occupied. Chi was probably still there, napping as a statue. Shiva herself smiled lightly after this time with Ventus - but her eyes are wet.
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Phantom is my OTP~ 